Tuesday, April 11, 2017

What A Season I Love Skiing


As the season ends, I look back on the winter with a huge smile. We had an enormous amount of snow and I was able to share my love and passion for skiing with so many people.

The Social Ski Group for members was a huge success. Our Monday expert group enjoyed exploring the deep powder stashes, tree skiing, and increasingly smaller airs... Andy Chambers, ex World Cup Racer, joined us on many Mondays and blessed us with stories, great company, and tips. What a true joy to watch someone ski so beautifully. His expertise and fluidity are amazing to watch.

The Wednesday intermediate group, which was consistently much bigger than the Monday group, was an incredible amount of fun. We challenged our skills in glades and powder. I watched skiers progress and gain confidence. Many of these skiers are ready for the expert group next year.

As always, the end of ski season is bittersweet for me. I look ahead to my mountain bike and my trail shoes, but skiing is my true love. With the warmer weather comes the influx of members and my busy season at 3 Creek. Longer days, twilight golf rounds and evening runs on the path await.

Until next year JHMR...

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Back Pain? Read this...

60 to 80% of adults are struggling with back pain on a regular basis. While many conditions can lead to lower back pain (LBP), inadequate core strength is a common causal factor.
Increased sedentary jobs and sitting time can lead to muscle imbalances and weak core musculature, putting the low back at increased risk of injury. Here are a few common reasons increased sitting time leads to LBP:
  • The deep core muscles are meant to endure prolonged contractions to support and stabilize the spine. When we slouch in a chair all day, the core remains relatively inactive. This results in a decreased signal from the brain to the core telling it to “turn on” and protect the spine when necessary.
  • The psoas major, one of the strongest hip flexors, originates at the lumbar spine. Sitting can shorten this muscle, putting chronic stress on the low back.
  • The gluteal muscles, which are the powerful hip extensors, become lengthened and weak, known as “glute amnesia.” These muscles are then unable to do their job in regular activities of daily living, forcing other muscles, such as those in the low back, to compensate.
While avoiding sitting altogether is unrealistic, specific exercises can help to minimize your chance of developing LBP. Here are five effective body-weight exercises you can do anywhere to ward off LBP.

Plank

plank
Tried and true, nothing enhances core stability like a plank. Start with your elbows positioned directly below your shoulders and walk the feet back one at a time until the body is in a straight line. Engage the quads, glutes and core, while pushing the floor away through the toes and forearms. Perform one to three sets for 30-60 seconds, or as long as you can maintain proper form.
Ramp it Up: To increase the challenge, find an unstable surface. This can be done by placing the forearms or feet on a soft pad or exercise ball, or by raising one arm or leg. Your hips and shoulders should remain in line with one another throughout.
Pare it Down: Decrease the challenge by elevating the surface. Position the hands or forearms on a bench, table or railing at a height that is challenging but allows for maintenance of proper form.

Side Plank

side-plank
While the standard plank is helpful for reducing the risk of LBP, the side plank may be even more beneficial because it requires activation of the internal and external obliques. It’s imperative to strengthen these muscles, as they help control rotational movements of the spine. Start with your elbow positioned directly below your shoulder. With the feet stacked or staggered, drive up through the lower obliques until the body is in a straight line. Keep the shoulders and hips stacked. Perform one to three sets for 30-60 seconds, or as long as you can maintain proper form.
Pare it Down: Drop a knee to the floor for additional support or find an elevated surface to place the hand or forearm, reducing the challenge on the core.

Back Extension

back-extension
Think of the core as a box. To prevent LBP, all sides of the box need to be strong and stable. Back extensions help strengthen the often-overlooked posterior side. With your lower body supported on a table or tall bench, let the upper body hang toward the floor (you will need a partner or strap to anchor your legs to the table). Engage your entire core and extend your upper body until it’s in line with your legs. Be sure to avoid extending past 180 degrees (where the upper body is higher than the legs) to limit compressive forces on the lumbar spine. Lower slowly and repeat for one to three sets of 10-15 repetitions.
Ramp it Up: Increase the challenge by making this an isometric exercise. Hold the top position for 30-60 seconds, or as long as you can maintain proper form.

Supine Gluteal Bridge

supine-gluteal-bridge
Weak gluteal muscles contribute to LBP by passing their work to the low back. The powerful gluteal muscles support activities like walking, running, squatting and deadlifting, but when they lack sufficient strength, the back bares the brunt of the load. Start in a sit-up position with your arms down by your sides. Press firmly through your feet and engage your glutes to lift up the hips, creating a straight line from the heels to the shoulders. Hold for two seconds and lower slowly. Perform one to three sets of 10-15 repetitions.
Ramp it Up: Increase the challenge by performing this exercise with a single leg, while maintaining level hips.

Bird Dog

bird-dog
You’ve likely seen this exercise performed at the gym. And it’s probably been done incorrectly. To perform properly, the trunk should remain stable, while the arms and legs move.
Begin in a quadruped position with your core engaged. Slowly raise one arm and the opposite leg to torso height. Your hips and shoulders should continue facing the floor. Slowly lower and repeat for 10-15 repetitions or hold the top position for 15-30 seconds. Repeat one to three times on each side.
Ramp it Up: Instead of the typical flexion and extension seen with this move, try a lateral bird dog. Once you reach the top position with the arm and leg extended, move both appendages a few inches laterally. This will dramatically increase the core challenge. Slowly return to the extended position and repeat for one to three sets of 10-15 repetitions.
Low-back pain is a common and debilitating condition. With a proper routine, you can strengthen your core and gluteal muscles and reduce your injury risk. This workout can be performed with nothing but your body weight—at home, in the gym or at the office. To further protect your low back, maintain an upright, engaged posture while on the job and avoid staying in any one position for too long.

Friday, March 10, 2017

A Message To Everyone

The following is a message from Lululemon. This is why I am proud to be a brand ambassador representing this inspiring company:

For you,
If you feel strong, or fragile, or strong and fragile. If you sometimes laugh at your mistakes and sometimes cry at them. Whether you are loud, or quiet, or are sometimes loud and sometimes quiet. If you are a mother, not yet a mother, a stepmother, will never be a mother, or never want to be a mother. If some days you battle the feelings of being infinitely worthless, and some days you recognize your infinite worth. If you take a stand for what you believe in, or don’t know what to believe in. Whether you are full of love, or fear, or sometimes love and sometimes fear. If you feel most beautiful in high heels and dark lips surrounded by bright lights, or most beautiful with a naked face gazing up at bright stars. If some days you refuse to give up, and other days you have nothing left to give. Whether you feel lost, are searching, or have found yourself. If you take a step forward, or a step back, but no matter what, you keep stepping. 


Wherever you are, in all that you are, we honour you.


Namaste

Friday, February 24, 2017

Relentless Winter

Relentless Winter

What a season it has been and we still have a lot of winter left at Jackson Hole Mountain Resort!  Insane snow totals, a DEEP snow base and all time skiing conditions are the many reasons why we’ll remember the winter of 2016-17. Just when we thought we were out of the storm cycle, another massive storm arrived and dropped over three feet of snow in four days, and there’s more snow in the forecast.

126″ HAS FALLEN THIS FEBRUARY ALONE – THE MOST SNOW TO HAVE EVER FALLEN IN ANY FEBRUARY AT JHMR, TO DATE.

TOTAL SNOWFALL AT RENDEZVOUS BOWL

YEARAPRIL 8
TOTAL
APRIL 8
DEPTH
FEBRUARY 22
TOTAL
FEBRUARY 22
DEPTH
1982532″153″392″110″
1989469″126″319″94″
1997584156486138
2008571″136″394″96″
2009495″105″343″78″
2011565″154″356″105″
2014468″138″316″112″
2017N/AN/A472155

Saturday, February 11, 2017

Snowpocolipse and deadlifts

Insanity in Jackson Hole this week.

On Tuesday night a wind storm blew down 17 power lines that supply power to northern Jackson, the airport, and Teton Village. Following that disaster there were two days of rain on top of 40 inches of snow. This creates very dangerous avalanche conditions which caused slides. These slides closed both the road over the pass to Victor and the road through the Hoback Canyon. Therefore, all roads in and out of Jackson were impassable.

Many roofs were caving in throughout the region.  The sheriffs office, sears complex and numerous personal residences are suffering from the weight and water content of the snow.

Crews from the surrounding states have been working 24 hours per day to restore power and normalcy to Jackson. 

I cannot help but think of all the money lost from tourism, all the food rotting in freezers across Jackson, and all the employees who will make no money during this time.  People are displaced, roads are a mess, grocery stores are emptying.

The community has shown its strength. Extra fitness classes have been added at many local studios, people have opened their homes, freezers and showers to those without power. I am proud to be a member of this amazing (and sometimes isolated) community.

Non-related item: today I had a PR (personal record) in deadlift.



Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Be Stronger Than Your Excuses

I have heard in my life that golf is a gentleman's game. To me, this means that a golfer has integrity. A golfer is honest about the score and the rules because normally a golfer is his or her own judge.

Currently, I believe that working out is a gentlewoman's sport. "How so?" Let me explain...

At times, I am in the gym alone. I have an app on my phone with a workout from my coach. It tells me what to do. It has a video in case I don't know the move.  It tells me how many sets and reps, and it tells me how much weight I did the last few times I did that particular exercise.  From there it is up to me.

If I cheat on my form, or record the incorrect weight, I am a cheater. When I am on rep number 12 and I feel like I can't do another rep, do I give up? Or do I push through and try to do all 15 reps? Am I stronger than my excuses?

I strive to be stronger than my excuses every day. Does that mean I never lower the weights? Does that mean that I never get sick or hurt? Does that mean I never adjust a workout? Absolutely not. I listen to my body, I desire to push myself and be the strongest I can be on that particular day. I rely on my brain and my body to work together to make good decisions.

Last week I missed two days of workouts (the first workouts I have missed since beginning this program.) I was fasting on Monday for a medical procedure that took place on Tuesday. Per doctors orders, I missed two days, which was four workouts. Today I did back and biceps, the workout I missed last week. As I was setting my weight for the lat pull and the narrow grip low row, the excuse side of my brain told me to set the weights lower or the same. The strong part of my brain said to go ahead and increase the weight and just do my best. I ended up having three personal bests today.

Today, I was stronger than my excuses!



Friday, January 20, 2017

Don't get "Hangry!" What is our eating plan?

I am always eating.  It is important to eat every 3 hours during this program in order to keep your body from feeling hungry. The body needs to have something to burn so it does not burn the muscle that I am trying so hard to build. 

A good visual that I like to think of is that my metabolism is a bonfire. I have to feed the fire every few hours to keep it from getting too small and going out. If you feed the fire too much at one time it will flare out of control.

Here is a sample of a given day of eating. This is taken from my food log on January 6th:

6am- 6 egg whites, 1/2 cup (pre cooked) oats, 1/2 cup unsweetened almond milk, 1/2 cup blueberries

8:30am (Post-workout 1)- 1 scoop Isopure protein powder, 2 rice cakes

10:30am- 4 oz grilled chicken, 4 oz cilantro lime quinoa, 4 oz asparagus

1:30pm- 4 oz ground turkey (seasoned w/ chili powder, cumin and salt), 5 oz sweet potato, 4 oz spinach

4:30pm (Post workout 2)- 4 oz ground turkey and 4 oz mixed salad greens with 1/4 avocado and vinegar

7:30pm- 4 oz sirloin, 4 oz brussel sprouts

9:30pm- 1 scoop of Isopure protein powder

As you can see, it is lots of food. The combinations of protein, carbs and veggies can vary. We are not eating any carbs after 4pm.  I have found it to be fairly easy as long as I have the food prepared and with me wherever I go. (And as long as I don't thing about doughnuts too often.)

Happy eating friends!

Monday, January 16, 2017

"Do, or do not. There is no try." -Yoda

I recently fell in love with Star Wars. I went 36 years without watching any of the movies and between Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve I binged watched every episode.  Of course I fell in love with the wise and (not so handsome) Yoda.

"Do, or do not. There is no try." -Yoda

This is how I feel about my decision to participate in the bodybuilding competition. When Meg first approached me with the idea, I did not immediately say yes.  I researched, spoke to a few people I knew who had participated, studied workouts and diets, and looked at competitor blogs. When I committed to Meg, I  did not commit to try, I committed to DO.

We hired Cody McDonald (www.codymacfitness.com) who is a professional body builder and fitness model, to be our coach.  Cody and I went to high school together and I am familiar with her athleticism and intelligence and I am inspired by her journey in NPC and WBFF competition.

Meg and I began our journey by documenting our daily metrics (weight, body fat percentage, muscle percentage, body mass index.) We also document everything we eat and drink as well as our workouts and hours of sleep.

Between October 12 and January 6 we were "bulking." Which means operating in a calorie surplus to build muscle. We began eating 7 meals per day, one meal every 2-3 hours. The foods and quantities were determined by our coach.

As of January 6 we are officially in our "prep." Thus far, our only changes have been adding a second workout each day, usually High Intensity Interval Training (HIIT.)   HIIT is in the morning and our weight training session is in the evening. This month we cut out carbs after 4pm and our protein per serving changed from 5 grams to 4 grams.

The Northern Colorado Championships on April 8 (my 37th birthday) is our planned bodybuilding debut.  I have been advised to "trust the process." And though I still cannot picture myself posing in a tiny, sparkling bikini... I have decided to listen to the little green Yoda. I will not try, I will DO!!!


Friday, January 13, 2017

100th Workout (What I have secretly been up to)

The 100th workout happened on Wednesday...

What am I talking about? I have secretly been training for an NPC Bodybuilding competition. I began the journey on October 12 and as of Wednesday I completed my 100th workout towards the goal.

What is the NPC? The National Physique Committee is the largest amateur bodybuilding organization in the United States.

I have an amazing training partner. I have a trained professional bodybuilder and fitness model coaching me, and I have a whole lot of enthusiasm for this new challenge.

From this point forward I will be posting information regarding my meal plans, workouts, and some progress photos (if I have the courage.)

Wish us luck...

Sunday, April 10, 2016

The Final Post

The final post

My 6 month checkup was on April 8 (also my 36th birthday.)

It was interesting. I was there 10 total minutes. The doctor took a sample, and told me even if the results are abnormal that I am healed. He said not to worry that my 3 month checkup was abnormal. Though this is hard to do, I am going to listen to him. Therefore, I guess I am healed. Yippee!

I will continue being checked every 3 month for 3 years, then every 6 months for 2 more years. Then once a year, every year,  for the rest of my awesome life.

I guess this is the end of my story... but really, this is just the beginning.

Thank you for reading.


Wednesday, January 13, 2016

The Winds are Changing

The Winds are Changing

With the start of the New Year comes new beginnings. For me, reflection and realization that change is a necessary thing. I heard a great quote, "Don't wait for the winds to change, adjust your sail."

I am a new woman. I have new fitness goals, new professional goals, and new personal goals.

I want to exercise because I CAN, not because I feel guilty if I don't. I want to run, bike or ski without a tracking device or a heart rate monitor. I want to look up and enjoy the world not stare at my numbers and watts and elevation.

I want to give to others and help people realize their true potential. Most importantly I want my clients to be able to participate in the activities they love without physical limitation, emphasizing injury prevention.

I want to break my mold; stick up for myself. Stay soft without allowing myself to be pushed around or manipulated.

May 2016 be full of good health!

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Cool pic (and medical update)

I am tired of blogging because I am tired of talking about myself. I am tired of recovery. And truthfully, I have been busy healing.  That is why I have not written. I will list a quick update then let's talk about something else.


1.   I was ordered right before thanksgiving to two weeks of no extra movement. No exercise, no stretching etc. This was due to a granulation.

2. My incision was still leaking.

3. I saw a urologist who used an ultrasound to determine that I was only voiding a small amount of fluid from my bladder. At 400ml the bladder is full, I was at 364ml after using the restroom. He ordered a cystoscopy.

4.  After the 2 weeks rest it was determined that the granulation was healing. The granulation was cauterized and I was given 2 stitches in my incision without anesthetic.  The doc said that he hopes in two more weeks everything will be totally healed.

5. The stitches popped out.

6.  My cystoscopy determined that my bladder is numb. There are two pockets of lymph fluid that have collected from the lymph node dissection and these pockets are pressing on my bladder. The reason my incision is not healing is this fluid is trying to escape. The stitches popping was
a good thing.  Apparently this fluid pooling can resolve itself in some cases. In other cases they drain this fluid with a syringe.  I made another appointment for 2 weeks from now to have another ultrasound.

Update complete.

Here are some other things I would be happy to talk about if you see me, or want to message me:
I am skiing
Christmas is coming
I have cool holiday decorations
The music lineup for winter is amazing
My parents are coming for Christmas
I love legwarmers

Happy Holidays to all! Here is a picture of me skiing in Iceland a few years ago. That always makes me happy!

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Thankful

Happy Thanksgiving.

I have much to be thankful for this year. Here are some of the highlights:

Mom and Dad- always awesome! Never let me down

Friends- who pick me up, carry me when needed, and endlessly support

My job at 3 Creek- inspires me, gives me purpose, pays for my life (and sickness)

The Tetons- offer me exercise, fun, endless beauty and inspiration

Negative Lymph Node Pathology- if only one thing goes right, this is the true blessing

Modern Medicine- even though this has been a tough battle, at least I won't likely die

Early Detection- Stage 3-4 are VERY bad







Wednesday, November 25, 2015

"Rad"

The doctor jargon for radical hysterectomy is "rad."

I walked into the office for an appointment with a new doctor and he said, "You certainly look good for having had a 'rad' eight weeks ago."

Then we did a rundown of the last 8 weeks including the seroma, a second surgery, trouble with my bladder, 4 infections followed by 4 rounds of anti-biotics, and now I am back in the office.  After the rundown he said, "Well, I would have never thought you had a 'rad' 8 weeks ago with complications, you look great!"

I fear that because I am healthy and fit (looking) I have been mistreated by my caregivers. I stroll into the offices over and over with a smile and a healthy complexion. I am not overweight and I wear fitness clothing. Does that mean a doctor can assume my body is healed? My surgeon told me I could do things that clearly I cannot.  He said pain could be my guide, and I have not had any pain. Yet here I am back on the sideline of my own life.

Just for everyone's information, so people can stop assuming that I did this to myself, I was completely released to ski, run, bike, etc at 6 weeks. I have not done one thing that hurt or caused abdominal pain, other than shovel (which I stopped immediately.) Yet, somehow I have an internal injury that is not healing. The wound is supposed to be skin like and smooth and it is raw and swollen. This is causing pressure on my insides making it difficult to eat, drink, and other important body functions.

Sadly, I cannot flex my abdominal muscles until released by my doctor. This means, no more skiing. I am approved for cardio such as elliptical or bicycle, but until further notice, no skiing.

I am still waiting to hear from my team at Huntsman to make sure they agree with the diagnosis of my Jackson doctor. Perhaps he will want to see me again. Maybe I can walk into the room in black workout tights and cute Lululemon jacket, and I can be told I am fine, and released for all activity. Or maybe I should show up in a moo-moo with my hair a complete mess and be told I need another 4 weeks of recovery.

All I want is to be told the truth. That would be "rad."


Here are a few pictures of my first post cancer ski. An epic moment for my soul.




Tuesday, November 17, 2015

New Beginnings

"New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings."

 Beginning today, right now, I am starting again.

Winter is upon us. Winter, my favorite season of the year. The season where the chill of the air bites our cheeks as we sail through snow. The season of holidays and shimmering snowflakes and sparkling decorations; fireworks and bright lights. I am coming into the season anew.

The past few weeks have been full of small accomplishments. I am accomplishing more in the gym. Slowly I am trying to get my body prepared for ski season. I skinned up the pass and (sort-of) skied back down the skin track. The funny part is, with my swollen belly and my ski pants a little too tight, I was unable to bend all the way over and tighten my boots. I had to have help from a friend in the parking lot. Thus making me the "ski girl" I hate to be. The person who needs help.

I realized while sitting in the snow at the top, that I was unable to stand back up without my poles due to the lack of core muscles. I have decided it would be quite a challenge to get up if I actually fell on skis. However, all of this was almost 2 weeks ago and I have gotten quite a bit better since then. I am waiting for more snowfall to attempt day 2 in the Tetons.

Though it has been a tough time for me, and though I sometimes feel tiny bits of depression and frustration, I am trying to better understand the human body. Particularly I am trying to grasp the overwhelming mind/ body connection. For me, as well as a friend I know who just had a hysterectomy, we are both mentally overwhelmed by our physical limitations. She is sadly suffering and fearful that she will not get back to "normal." I shared the same feelings. I sometimes still share those same feelings.

My new attitude is that today is a new beginning. My past does not define me. I can bravely move forward and confidently embrace the new beginning.  So can anyone!




Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Outpouring of Love

Outpouring of Love

First, I would like to thank my 3 Creek friends who have sent messages of support, care and love. I am so thankful to have such a wonderful place to work and such amazing clients and friends.

The good news is that I am back at work and training again. Training makes me feel productive. I know I am helping people. I know I have knowledge and experience that people appreciate. I know that my spirit and good attitude have been missed.

Yesterday I rode a spin bike for 10 minutes and did another 10 minutes on an elliptical. I was surprised that I wasn't more fatigued from the effort. I laid on the ground and did some minimal stretching. I used a foam roller for the first time since before surgery. It was AWESOME!

Second, I would like to apologize for not blogging. I have no real excuse. I have not been busy. The only reason I have not written is that I was afraid of being  negative. I am trying so very hard to stay  positive and continue my healing journey.

I was very frustrated the last few weeks. My body is healing and I am feeling better, but I am not back to "normal." I do realize that my "normal" is not the average normal. I want to be training for ski season. I want to go into the snow covered mountains and slip, slide and play.

I told myself when I scheduled the surgery that I would be back to normal by Halloween. (my favorite holiday: which Trey and I celebrated by watching all four of the "Saw" movies instead of going out in our amazing costumes.)  Now I am thinking Thanksgiving.  What seems to be the problem you may ask? It is incredibly hard to explain. My stomach muscles are extremely tight. I feel like I have a bike tube wrapped tightly around my lower abdomen.  I have trouble bending over to touch my toes or bending sideways. I have trouble getting up and down off the floor. These things are all minor inconveniences, the real issue is that my incision is still leaking.  I cannot express the frustration of wanting to get on with my life and having to constantly change gauze pads, and drip, drip, drip. ARGH!!!!!!!

I have an appointment at 1:30 today to have it checked. I assume this is normal. What I am really looking for is peace of mind. To know that it is fine, to know it isn't another seroma, to know that I am still moving in the right direction is what I am looking for. I honestly believe it is what the doctor will say.

I sound like a spoiled kid. I should be thankful that I am healthy and that the surgery was successful. I went through the hardest thing I have ever been through and I am still standing to tell you about the experience. I know I should be patient and not get frustrated. I know I should be appreciative of the things I can do and not fixate on the things I can't do. For this, I apologize. I am not proud of myself for getting frustrated. I am a "glass half full" kind of girl.

Again, I apologize for not blogging during the time that the glass was half empty. Especially if you are reading this because you are going through something similar. It isn't all smiles and giggles. The struggle is real. The reality is a struggle. However, in the end, it will make us stronger!







Saturday, October 17, 2015

3 weeks

3 Weeks or 1 Week (depending on the surgery)

The last few days in Jackson were beautiful.  Sorry I didn't blog.

I wasn't outside hiking and biking so don't worry. I am still following the doctors orders and taking it easy. I have been on some small walks and sat outside in a chair. The big news is I drove!!!  I went to the grocery, where I can't lift more than 15 pounds so I bought 3 avocados and some grapes. It didn't matter what I bought, I just wanted the feeling of independence and freedom.

I've been thinking a lot about what I thought my recovery would be like. I thought I would blog, catch up on reading, watch great movies, work on my cookbook and enjoy time off work and exercise. NOT how It is! This has not been a pleasurable break.  I can't get comfortable, ever. However, I feel a change coming...

My incision is looking good. Honestly, nearly undetectable to the untrained eye. Only one small spot is not fully closed yet (yes the leaking is annoying.) My insides are healing. Today I coughed and didn't feel like a horse kicked me in the belly. It felt more like a tiny unicorn. I can laugh (awesome!) Laughing was incredibly painful just a few days ago.  Getting up and down from seated or laying isn't as much of a chore. Standing and walking are bearable. I'm off pain pills.

I can't wait to wear normal clothes. If the incision were closed I think my clothes would fit. I still have swelly belly but not too bad. I'm tired of fat pants. I certainly don't want to go back to work at the fitness center wearing fat pants.

I'm feeling optimistic. The setback that led to the second surgery is just a tiny speed bump. My mental strength continues to build as my physical strength improves. I'm almost through this. And honestly, this has been tough but it could have been much worse. If this is my life's biggest battle I should count my blessings.


Monday, October 12, 2015

Toughness

Toughness


Toughness comes in many forms. In the case of my situation I am going to discuss two: mental toughness and physical toughness.

At the beginning of this cancer mess my body was strong, fit, and capable to handle the mental toughness of my diagnosis and the unpredictable road ahead. Now, after surgery and complications, my physical toughness is hanging on by a thread. It is now that I must call on my mental toughness to be the super hero.

My body is the weakest it has been. My bladder actually went to sleep and forgot that it has a job to do. Can you imagine the helplessness of trying to harness energy and motivation just to get a bladder going. I know how to fire my gluteus or my quads, but my bladder...

Using my batman light I called in mental toughness. Lindsey, you can handle this. A few more days and the body will be feeling safe and everything will function properly.  I walked two laps around my garage saying, a month from now you will be skiing.

Come on body...Be the Ying to my brains Yang.  I need you both.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Is this the drugs talking

Drugs Talking


It's likely the drugs talking but I'm out of the last surgery and I feel GOOD!  I tentatively looked under the covers and down to my stomach a few minutes ago and it looks flat!   The incision is thin and perfect. Thank you Dr.  Soisson and team. I have no idea how they turned that samari sword slice into this.

Bad Kangaroo

Bad kangaroo

Turns out the kangaroo pouch is bad news. It is a seroma. I'm sorry for not blogging but the last three days have been really difficult. With no sugar coating, here is the story:

I mentioned I was having bleeding after my long walk on Tuesday. When it continued over night I called my team at Huntsman. They advised going to Dr. Gerling in Jackson. She is the doc who diagnosed me. I called at 8:45 and by 9:15 she had used a scalpel to reopen the wound to release the seroma. Blood was everywhere. Like a haunted house zombie scene. I'm not exaggerating. She then debreeded the wound and packed it. Very painful steps.

At 4:30 the same day I was back with my best pal and as Dr. Gerling did it again, Elizabeth watched and took notes because she was to do it twice a day for 4-6 weeks. This time she poked a copper headed stick multiple times directly into the wound to cause blood clotting. OUCH!

Just so you understand the severity of the wound, it is 10 inches long and 3 inches deep. I have a picture that I'm not going to post.

Thursday was filled with pain, light headedness, temperature spikes, lack of appetite and total energy loss. I had similar symptoms to a person in shock. Emotional and physical setback was causing me to feel anger and depression and again I called Huntsman. I was monitoring my temperature closely overnight, until my Friday 1pm appointment.

After changing the dressing and repacking  the wound by my superhero best girlfriend/ stand in nurse, amazing woman, I had a somewhat difficult road trip to SLC. Thankful that Trey is patient, sympathetic and loving, we made it at exactly 1pm. At 1:01 I had my entire team looking at me. Uncharacteristicly, when Dr. Soisson asked me how I was feeling, I started crying.

The team decided to readmit me to the hospital immediately and since Dr. Soisson is the weekend surgeon on call he would put me back together. The good news, best news, news that makes this a beautiful day is that my pathology on the lymphectomy  was CLEAN!!!  No cancer had spread!!

In a couple hours I'll be getting seen back together. The kangaroo has left the building.